A rough day

Bare with me guys....

To sum it up, today was a rough day. As you all know today was suppose to be the day for our insemination, but since it's Saturday, it did not occur. I am still VERY bitter about this and then it makes it even harder that I have to be at work, instead of at home with my husband. So, today at work there was a period of time when I had 5 patients and they were all under the age of 2 months. This usually would not bother me, and I can't say that it bothered me today either, but it was the thought that as I held one of the babies whose mother was not there and when she was there didn't take care of her child or the other 2 kids with her, I found myself very upset and frustrated-not with my patient though, with his mother! I thought to myself, today I should be having IUI and making a baby with my husband, but instead I'm being a "mom" to a patient that needs me but his mother is choosing to not be here and care for him and she has 3 kids and I want to be a mom more than anything in this world and I can't have 1! I was thankful I had two of my really great friends there to help me and support me. Then, here's the other difficult part and I do not mean to sound harsh or offend anybody, but you know the saying think before you speak? That statement means so much more to me now that I am dealing with infertility, than it ever did before. Why? Because do you know how hurtful it is to me when someone says the following: Are you pregnant yet? When are you going to get pregnant? You don't want any kids, trust me! Gosh, I hope I'm not pregnant! When you all going to make some babies? I used to ask some of these same questions, but I will not do so anymore, because I know how difficult answering them can be now. I know that children can be challenging at times, but we are ready to take on that challenge! I know that pregnancies sometimes aren't always planned, but I would love to pee on a stick a get a positive! It can be very hurtful to the person you are making those comments to or asking those questions too, especially when 1 of 8 couples are dealing with infertility. So, please think before you speak.

Disclosure:I do not want this to be taken the wrong way. I love my job as a Pediatric nurse, but it is more trying at times due to my situation right now. I do love babies and I am happy for those fortunate to become pregnant, because there will be a day when I will be too. I do not resent pregnant women, I can promise you that. I just want to educate you all on being careful about what is coming out of your mouth.