Let the meds begin....

Meds, means medications for those of you who don't know. I know I haven't posted in a couple days, but nothing has been very exciting over the past few days. I did finish my week one challenge of Couch to 5 K...yay!! And, we celebrated one of our best friend's engagement. Jason and I are both going to be in the wedding, which is this October and this may be interesting...I may be a pregnant bridesmaid : ) Jason and I went to church yesterday and I went forward, at the invitation, to have my Pastor pray with me since we are starting our fertility treatments today. Our pastor is such an influential person in our lives, one because he has known me since I was born and has also been someone I look up to. Once Jason and I started dating, he began coming to church with me and we got really close with our Pastor, when we went through our pre-marital counseling. Of course, our Pastor prayed an awesome prayer and I felt the spirit of the Lord providing me peace and comfort and I know that He will carry me. One of my favorite songs right now, is "He will carry me" by Mark Shultz and I encourage all of you to check it out. The lyrics describe me right now at this time in my life and I want to share them with you. Of course, the song is a lot prettier and I wish I knew how to post a link for you to hear the song.

I call, You hear me

I’ve lost it all

And it’s more than I can bear

I feel so empty

You’re strong

I’m weary

I’m holdin’ on

But I feel like givin’ in

But still You’re with me

And even though I’m walkin’ through

The valley of the shadow

I will hold tight to the hand of Him

Whose love will comfort me

And when all hope is gone

And I’ve been wounded in the battle

He is all the strength that I will

Ever need

And He will carry me

I know I’m broken

But You alone

Can mend this heart of mine

You’re always with me

And even though I feel so lonely

Like I’ve never been before

You never said it would be easy

But You said you’d see me through

The storm

I found so much strength in this song because it satisfies my soul to know that God is and will carry me through this challenging time, even though I do feel lonely at times, I know that He has his arms around me. I had to go pick up my prescriptions today and I must say I have been more than nervous today, just knowing that "this is it". I called my doctor's office this afternoon to confirm how I was suppose to start the meds. I knew that I had a lot to process the day Jason and I met with him and even being a nurse, it's not easy to remember all the specific details. I am thankful that I did call, because I misunderstood something. I started Prometrium today, a progesterone pill and I will take this for 12 days, this pill is suppose to make me have a menstrual cycle (let's hope and pray it does....I was successful in the past with another progesterone pill-Provera) Once I start my cycle, that will count as Day 1. On Day 3, I will start Clomid, which is the pill to make me ovulate. I will take this for 5 days. Also, on Day 3, I will go into the office for my first ultrasound and this will be to ensure that I am releasing eggs. This is when the frequent monitoring occurs to find the right time to do the insemination. I am seeking prayers that these medications will do what they are suppose to do and that of course we will have a successful insemination. As I have been speaking to more and more people about my story, I am starting to feel more comfortable, and I know that my God is in control. He has a plan for all of us and I just hope that one of His plans for me is to be a mommy. To end on a more funnier, positive note....I attended a friend's wedding shower Saturday and I won a door prize, I must say I never win anything like that, my "luck" sucks. A lady at my table who I don't know said, "your luck must be getting better". I have to say, this put a smile on my face and then I began talking to another friend of mine who is an accountant and she told me about a new item some people are able to claim on their taxes, and I looked into it, it saved us $800, so we now only owe $400 for our federal income taxes....maybe my luck is changing. So, I'm hoping to keep the luck going as we start our fertility treatments today!!